| 6.25.02 |
Jimmy-Kick
you're just one of those troubled girlsYes, if you need a personal therapist for a moment and then feel like kicking that same person in the jimmy, give me a call...
using me for everythign but love
don't make excuses for what you did to me
you'd kissed me
and dissed me
but now you say you miss me
you used me
confused me
but you don't want to lose me
don't talk to me
don't acknowledge me anymore
i'm just another score
| 6.24.02 |
Slapping high fives with my own business
Just came across this little link which amused me for about 10 minutes just seeing what combo I could get, and then reading the funniest.html page. Go check it out.
Oops.
Joy of joys, a weekend spent re-installing winXP and reinstalling everything. It wouldn't have been so bad if I could've managed to save some things, like links, because now all the pages I had bookmarked are gone and since I had'm bookmarked I didn't really remember what their url's are. Just annoying shit like that..
What else happened? Not much but I realized sitting at the pool just doing nothing, is a perfectly legitimate way to spend your summer. Infact I think I may do just that from now on since I "belong" to a pool now.
| 6.21.02 |
GG USA
So our boys lost a thriller in S.Korea against the Germans, who showed why they've won the Cup 3 times. And in all honesty I'm not that mad/sad. I mean we played a good game, showed we've come a long way, and hopefully garnered some more respect from the International Community.
I just wish that damned accidental hand-ball had been called wrong..or that the guy wasn't even there, because that was a goal if he hadn't been right there. And the weird thing is that normally there isn't a defender on the far post, there's one on the near post to cover curls in while the goalie normally covers the far post himself.
But we played a damned good tournament and our boys can go home knowing they played their hearts out and also that hopefully they got a lot more people onto the joy that is football [the real football].
| 6.15.02 |
A trend, sadly
This week's blown more chunks then any week in recent memory, and goddamnit that sucks. I know good/bad days/weeks/months or whatever come and go like the tide, but I fucking hate it when I'm at the bottom of that wave waiting for some nice wave to come by and pick me up again.
Cause it seems like I keep paddling out to waves that appear to be nice ones, but then when I get closer I see they were just either little piddly waves, or not even waves at all. You can't believe how fucking frustrating that is.
I want that big wave that'll come by and make me forget about all the shit days to come around now. Fuck waiting for it, I've already had enough shit-days recently that my time is due. Hell even those 'good' days that happened somewhat recently weren't that good in retrospect, I think I was so looking for something to be good, I made it better then it really was in my head.
As for everything else relating to people I basically feel like this lyric.
You could slit my throatMainly because I'm a fucking sucker for anyone who I've ever felt anything for be it friend/girlfriend, or other, and even though I continualy seeing them not give me the time of day, or keep whatever minor promises they made to me, I always seem to go out of my way for them. It's pathetic.
and with my one last gasping breath I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt.
It's pathetic.
Maybe I am? Or maybe I need to suck it up and stop doing that shit, but I don't think I have because then I wouldnt' have any friends or anyone to talk to.
| 6.13.02 |
Sir Suck a Lot
You know what sucks, I mean sucks bigtime? When you have a bunch of people who are "supposed" to call you back. Out of the 7 people who were supposed to call, how many actually called back after I intiailly called them? 1. One motherfucking person out of 7, what a shitty ass ratio that is.
Guess it just goes to show who your real friends are...I mean fuck it's not like I was even asking them to let me borrow some blood or anything strenous as that. I was fucking inviting them to a goddamned cookout where they wouldn't really have to pay for shit, and could get drunk.
People suck.
| 6.12.02 |
Nights spent discussing the stars
You know how during those nice summer nights you feel like staying outside all night just because it's so nice? Well that's how I feel at the moment, I so want to just be sitting in my back yard with someone talking about life, the universe, and everything. Because it's one of those calming things, where you just talk about whatever, what you want to do, what you don't want to do, and so on. It's really cathartic in a way, which is why I think I would like for it to happen.
But sadly I have no one who wants to sit outside in my back yard with me.
Anyone want to volunteer?
| 6.11.02 |
When, where, wha?
It's never a good thing when you wake up in the morning on your couch not knowing exactly what happened the night before and a note in your hand saying your friend who was watching the football game with you went home.
It's even worse when you come to find out you did indeed yak it all up at some point during the night. Oh the fucked up things that happen.
| 6.8.02 |
Upset for the ages
Been a while since I wrote, mostly because lately all I've done is stay up [or sometimes wake up real early] and watch the World Cup games. Which have been some amazing matches. In particular the USA/Portgual game that had me screaming at the top of my lungs everytime we scored, and eventually screaming at the end when we managed to pull off the win.
It was one of the most amazing things I think I have ever seen, and hopefully we can continue the upset and beat S.Korea on Monday. And maybe then World Cup fever will finally sweep the country.
| 6.2.02 |
For the moment
Once again this [just right-click and "save as.."] song describes exactly what I'm feeling, and thinking. At least for the moment..
